I have barely left my house in over 9 months. I fear for my life almost everyday. Since I have left the Royal French Guard I have not been able to publicly walk the street, for I would be killed. Many of my old comrades, who used to work for me, would now betray me if they saw me, because I refuse to change my loyalties to that of a man named Robespierre. He says he wants to make the conditions better for all men, and has become the new leader of France by force but I cannot be faithful to someone who killed our King. Since I refused to join them I am now considered to be somewhat of a traitor, as I still stay true to what I believed is right, and that the King should not have been executed. I would probably be killed if I were seen. I have seen it happen so many times to many people, though they are often people of authority and public name, that openly appose Robespierre. These last few months have also not just had senseless killing, but burnings, and a war has been started with what seems to be every neighbouring country we have. It has been very hard on many people, because even if now we can afford the bread, because of the new fixed price, we cannot go out and get it. I also do not approve of the way these people have been treating the Church. I hold great honour in my faith, and to see these people close the churches, and kill many people involved with it is devastating. I cannot fulfill my duties as a devout Christian if I cannot go to mass every Sunday. I wish this great terror to be over, even if this Robespierre is to stay in power. I wish that he would simply restore our country to how it was before and stop the senseless killing. I hope to one day live in a France where I feel free to go out on the streets and resume a position under a newly reinstated King. The most important job I will ever have is to serve the King I have and serve him well!